Updates

Well, lets see, where do I begin!

I finally called my doctor back to reschedule my appointment. He's going to be in surgery when my appontment was supposed to be so it got pushed out 2 weeks. Now its on May 16th. Hopefully I'll be pregnnt again by the time my appointment comes around.

My dads surgery has been moved up 2 days. Instead of it being this Friday, Marks birthday, its on Wednesday. Wow! Reality sure set in this morning. I thought, we all thought, we had the whole week to prepare but now its today and tomorrow. They are going down there on Tuesday for his pre-op and just staying the night. Not sure what time is surgery is now. It's all happening so fast.

I know things will be fine, its all just scary.

My candle season has officially started, and I'm very excited!!! I've been making candles for about 5 days and I cant wait to make more! They are turning out very well so far, and I'm experimenting with color, different scents and sizes.

I have to get 100 candles made by next month because that's when Farmers Market starts. Hopefully this year I do better at Farmers Market because I will actually be selling there all summer instead of the last month.

If you are interested in candles, just let me know! I have lots of scents and colors that I can make candles with for you.

The other night I had a dream. It was a nice dream, but I just cant stop thinking about it.

It was supposed to be the day of my dads pre-op so they wouldnt be home. I was walking down their road, passed my parents house and just kept walking. I guess they were home and my dad saw me through the window, he came out and called my name. So I walked back to their house. When I go there, there was a toy airplane sitting in their front yard. In the airplane were two little boys. One was about 1 1/2 (which would have been the age of the child we would have if we got pregnant when we first started trying) and then another little boy who was about 6 months old (which I can only imagine was the baby that we just lost, which doesnt really make sense because I should still be pregnant with that baby). Anyway, the entire time I was playing with them in the dream I couldnt see their faces.

And then I woke up.