Her newly (sweet pink) painted walls and crib :) :)

We are having a...

GIRL!!!!!

Her hands and feet were in front of her face the entire time

My sweet angel :)

...her name is a secret until she is born :)

Just an update...

I had a doctors appointment yesterday. My tests for cystic fibrosis and down syndrome came back negative :)


When we were listening to the heartbeat the baby kicked or hit the dopler :)


We have an ultrasound on May 8th to find out if we are having a boy or girl!!!!


I'm so excited!

This Boy Melts My Heart...

So, I'm not sure if its my hormones or what, but he completely melted my heart today. And I am in tears just thinking about it. I cant believe that I am lucky enough to have him in my life. I spent the majority of the day with him, and it was the greatest day I've had in a while! All I can think about are the cuddles and hugs I kept getting all day.


Here come the tears :)

The pictures are backwards, but I didnt want to go back and fix them!


Bringing me the mail, which he later replaced with a glass frog and lady bug rock.

14 Weeks

At my 14 week appointment we heard the heartbeat and he measured my stomach. At my next appointment we are scheduling my ultrasound to find out if it a girl or boy!!

10 weeks

Head on the right. Body on the left. Arm on the bottom.

Happy Anniversary!

I cant believe that we've been married for 4 years.
Its seems to have just flown by.

We're Pregnant!!

I had my doctors appointment today. I'm behind schedule by 2 weeks but he said because the heartbeat was strong that he wasnt concerned. It was so amazing seeing that little heart beating.

My due date is September 13th.

Happy New Year!!!

I hope everyone has a safe and great 2009!!

Merry Christmas!

December 23rd, 2008

Tristan opened a few toys on the 23rd because he was going back to his moms on Christmas Eve and Brad didnt want him to get the toys and not be able to play with them.

I guess he figured it was easier to upwrap the present if he layed on it.

Coloring with his color wonder makers and paper that we got him :)

Playing in his tunnel.

Having Tristan Withdrawls

After not seeing Tristan for a week I was having withdrawls! 
But he got to come to daycare yesterday for an hour or so, so I took the opportunity to take lots of pictures :) :)

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Only 28 days until Christmas!!!

Today I had an appointment with my new doctor. When I was registering with him I found out that he is a specialist, which is a really good thing! I really like him :)
He's putting me on Provera then Clomid. Hopefully it will work as successfully as my previous attempt. If for some reason I have another m/c he said that I will have to be tested. I'm not sure what the test is, but he said everyone who has 3 m/c's has to get tested. Which is fine. I just want to do everything possible to have a successful pregnancy. So tomorrow, I start provera and in about a week or two I start clomid.

Our Last Two Weeks of October

We went to Fort Bragg!

Then it was Tristan's 2nd Birthday!! 
I cant believe he's two already. He's growing up too fast.

Save Water. Drink Juice.

Fishin!
Caught One!
After that it was Landon's 3rd Birthday! We went to Miracle Ranch. Rode the train (the kids got to ride twice), there was face painting, pumpkins, horses and other animals! It was lots of fun!

Our Vacation

We needed a vacation so we went to Fort Bragg for the weekend.

This is our cozy little cottage!

The beautiful ocean <3

Did you know that if you are driving home from Fort Bragg on 101 and you arent paying attention you end up in Santa Rosa?

We were just driving home and the next thing we know Santa Rosa is 14 miles away. Good thing we didnt have to be anywhere at a certian time. We ended up having to go through Santa Rosa, Fairfield and Sacramento. It was fun, but a very long drive :)

I Wish...

That I had a baby...

To dress

To feed breakfast, lunch and dinner to

To give a bath

To hold, carry, snuggle

To put to bed

...I wonder who my baby would look like. What their cry would sound like. How they would fall asleep. What toy they would like best. What their schedule would be. 

I know that I wasnt pregnant for very long, but I knew that there was supposed to be a baby inside me. It's supposed to be getting easier, right? Lately it seems harder and harder. I think about it 24/7 and everything I do I cant help but think how I would have to do it differently or if I would even be able to do it with a baby.

Its Official

My doctor called this morning and confirmed that I did in fact have another miscarriage a couple weeks ago. 

...and I thought things were going good this time. It felt different, I had more/different symptoms.

I guess that's it for now. We just keep trying until we finally succeed with a healthy pregnancy.

Day Three

On our last day there we went to the Oregon Coast Aquarium.

Octopus

Sea Horse - It was the best picture I could get. He kept moving.

We had a good trip, but we are very glad to be home!